A title to win and a season to repair...

[Moka26]

I wrote about my rookie season probably too early... (Here it is, for those that want to read it )

Honestly, I expected no further drama going into the final games of the season, and oh boy was I wrong ! Just after that we lost against Cairo.

Yeah, we lost, but we still have two points of cushion, right... right ?

No, we lost again, and this one was probably weirder than that for a probably frustrating and raging reason : I distracted the players. I was not understanding why I didn't start that game, being on the bench for longer than I anticipated, and for that reason I decided to throw a tantrum at the coach. It was so loud that it started dragging the players' attention away from the game, and that is how we conceded the first goal.

Seeing the damage I caused, I went directly into the locker room to cry and try to calm myself down. I sobbed and sobbed and cried, and started praying, that my tantrum was not the reason we lost the game. My mind reminded me of that intervention when conceding my first goal in Minors, when I was just not fast enough, and the ball was still slightly out of the box. I felt really bad thinking about it. I was so grateful and relieved when we equalised right after...

After the game I could not stop thinking about what was happening, and after shower I turned the TV on in the debriefing room (or the analysis room, I don't remember their names though) to watch the Cairo game. I didn't notice if anyone joined, but when their game finished I felt a weight in my heart. I decided to go back home to cool off and let the emotions out, because at the moment it was too painful for me to be able to articulate anything coherent.

The next day, I went to the manager's office to present my apologies for what I did and how it placed the team in a difficult position, or just a less easy one to deal with. I just wanted to get that weight out of my chest and bring back peace in the locker room's atmosphere.

And like the father in the story of the prodigal son, he couldn't care less about my apologies. I could not even retain my tears when he told me that I'll play the next game. I couldn't say anything more ; I was just there, my tears coming down slowly, and... yeah. I think there is all I heard Predrag say : "Next game against Athenai ; you want to repair what you've done, right ? Here's your chance, do not let that slip !"

Let's get back to work, then. See you next time !

[CamGoldenGun]

461 words.

London best not be looking down on Athenai! Bring your A game.

[Moka26]

We won the game and that was a SMOOTH OPERATIONNNN... ;)