2022-12-10, 02:30 PM - Word count:
Its okay to just be happy. A lot of good players made a real difference to people that never won anything. At this point, I think that I have to accept that I made a bad player and my idea about what kind of player would be effective was just wrong. Despite being the most purpose-built presser and midfield destroyer Milan Horvat just isn't doing anything noticeable. I really thought that if I juiced pace, acceleration, work rate that Milan would cover space like nothing else and would be able to thrive in the kind of popular high press high tempo tactic that football managers like.
Its hard to really express just how much of a failure I've been in SSL I feel without it being me whining a lot. I understand that every mistake I've made I made but that doesn't really make me feel any better. I've been the worst ever manager in SSL history, probably for all of its history, and I wasn't worth even a heads up by my former team that I was leaving before everyone else found out.
It's just incredible how hypocritical all my articles and PowerPoint I've made now when as a player and manager I've proven to be the worst possible at either of those roles.
But it's still okay for me to be happy. So I'm now objectively shown to be shit at FM and despite thousands of hours of playing, I know nothing more than someone who just comes into the game with no knowledge of soccer even. AS Paris will probably fail to get promoted again bizarrely on the final matchday. Milan Horvat will go down as a player of all time that filled a role that was never relevant. The best I can hope for is everyone forgets my time as manager of a team I never wanted to be the manager of in the first place.
Because those things are great. I know I'll get to experience them with cool people I enjoy being around. And thats why soccer is great and football is a beautiful game. There are clubs in leagues that will never win the title again or any cup or anything. Minnesota for two decades now is a place where we just don't win anything, but you get to learn here that its not the thing that matters. My first memory of my father is him being angry and crying over wide left 1998. That guy lived his whole life never being happy or sad or anything 99% of the time. But he was able to still experience emotions through sports and he did it with me at wide left 2016. I simed for hours and hours of the little time that I had between work sleep food and I was miserable at being a manager, being a person being a player and was at every point for months. But I would still do it all over again and remember every bit of it if someone offered to just burn it out of existence. Because it was something that only I could have experienced.
Your experience in SSL is going to be unique and no one else is going to be able to understand exactly how you feel about things that will happen. As someone who has been in sim leagues for too long I wish I could have told my former self all those years ago to celebrate the time you have and learn that its okay to just be happy.
Its hard to really express just how much of a failure I've been in SSL I feel without it being me whining a lot. I understand that every mistake I've made I made but that doesn't really make me feel any better. I've been the worst ever manager in SSL history, probably for all of its history, and I wasn't worth even a heads up by my former team that I was leaving before everyone else found out.
It's just incredible how hypocritical all my articles and PowerPoint I've made now when as a player and manager I've proven to be the worst possible at either of those roles.
But it's still okay for me to be happy. So I'm now objectively shown to be shit at FM and despite thousands of hours of playing, I know nothing more than someone who just comes into the game with no knowledge of soccer even. AS Paris will probably fail to get promoted again bizarrely on the final matchday. Milan Horvat will go down as a player of all time that filled a role that was never relevant. The best I can hope for is everyone forgets my time as manager of a team I never wanted to be the manager of in the first place.
Because those things are great. I know I'll get to experience them with cool people I enjoy being around. And thats why soccer is great and football is a beautiful game. There are clubs in leagues that will never win the title again or any cup or anything. Minnesota for two decades now is a place where we just don't win anything, but you get to learn here that its not the thing that matters. My first memory of my father is him being angry and crying over wide left 1998. That guy lived his whole life never being happy or sad or anything 99% of the time. But he was able to still experience emotions through sports and he did it with me at wide left 2016. I simed for hours and hours of the little time that I had between work sleep food and I was miserable at being a manager, being a person being a player and was at every point for months. But I would still do it all over again and remember every bit of it if someone offered to just burn it out of existence. Because it was something that only I could have experienced.
Your experience in SSL is going to be unique and no one else is going to be able to understand exactly how you feel about things that will happen. As someone who has been in sim leagues for too long I wish I could have told my former self all those years ago to celebrate the time you have and learn that its okay to just be happy.
